That Slightly Nauseous Light-Headed Feeling You Get at the Start of a Project

"And his master saw that the Lord was with him and that the Lord made all he did to prosper in his hand." Genesis 39:3

I'm starting a new business, and I'm pretty terrified. Terrified that I won't succeed. But more terrified that I will succeed and will become something I'm not. That somehow I will bow to the pressures of success and turn my life in a direction that I don't want to go. I guess part of that is my control freak self wanting to keep a firm grip on the steering wheel.

Part of it is also just watching other people let success destroy them. I would rather live a quiet safe life than blow it big time. Why? Because blowing up could result in injuries to those closest to me--to those I love and care about most.

But how long can I shut myself up, shut myself down for the sake of others? And who says God wants me to?